Friday, January 30, 2015

Abyss

Adam had felt a numberof odd sensations throughout his life, but never before had he mentioned them in conversation. Proper decorum would have prohibited the allowance of such talk, and surely, these matters were nothing but trifling annoyances. Occasionally, his ears would burn continuously for seven minutes. He wouldn’t have called this a common phenomenon—not quite—but it had repeated itself with enough regularity to warrant precise cataloguing. That alone was particularly unsettling.

And then there was the silence. Or rather more appropriately…the lack of silence. Never in his memory had Adam encountered true, uninterrupted silence. The admittance of such a thing would have been awkward, thus greatly inconveniencing whatever company he had burdened with this information. Adam could never bear the thought of being such a bother.

Honestly, the utter lack of silence had evolved into a comfort in Adam’s life. An auditory mist accompanied him throughout his days, and although it rendered him unable to find solitude, he scarcely yearned for such a stereotypical description of peace. Silence was foreign and empty—a nameless void without warmth or comfort. His mist pulsated gently within his mind, and as the years had progressed, he had come to relish and even depend upon its continued presence.

Until it started counting.

It was a Tuesday morning…or was it a Thursday? Adam had always found the labels of the days redundant and useless in the absence of remarkable events. Unfortunately, this particular Tuesday or Thursday would prove quite remarkable as it staunchly awoke Adam with the sound of counting.

Never before had the mist made such pointed contact with Adam, and although the numbers of his own tongue remained absent from the mist, he felt the countdown viscerally within him. Was it a warning? Was it a reminder? As the hours dragged through that Tuesday or Thursday, the origin of the counting remained a mystery, but the intensity grew as the mist began to expand.

No longer was the swirling mist confined to Adam’s mind. Gradually, the sensation slid down his neck and across his arms, and as it did, the numbers were finally translated inside his now boiling brain.

Five.

Adam’s breathing became increasingly labored as invisible tendrils gripped his chest.

Four.

Fearful whimpers leapt off of his tongue as the silky streams laced around his throat.

Three.

Adam’s vision began to recede in unimaginable fashion. He was being pulled back…back…back into the dark.

Two.

Every finger curled at the mercy of the mist as it encased his bones and fell into his blood.

One.

Why had he been forsaken by the one comfort of his existence? This was wrong. This was wrong! Screams died before they began as his shell continued to crumble around him.

Zero.

Darkness. Adam had recessed so far within himself that all sense of corporeal existence had faded into a distant memory. Instead, he swirled in an unknown abyss, screaming into the blackness…terrified of the silence that had finally fallen.



Ah, that’s right…it was a Wednesday.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Shut Up and Dance With Me

If aliens finally made contact with modern man and, for some reason, examined the Top 40 charts as a means of discovering the intricacies of humanity, they would probably assume that our society held dancing in the highest respect. Every other song on the radio nowadays seems obsessed with the idea of dancing despite the rapid deterioration of the practice. Sure, clubs are filled nightly with the sweaty bodies of grinding animals blanketed in an aroma of cologne, sweat, and regret, but the art of dance is rarely seen outside of ballroom competitions and dates meant to mark a particularly sweet anniversary.

Partner dancing has become incredibly romanticized even though it has been a staple of human connection and entertainment for millennia. But why? Are we experiencing a temporary lull before an inevitable renaissance? Is culture deteriorating so exponentially that we are witnessing the extinction of an art? Or are we so caught up in the romantic idea of the past that we fail to see the burgeoning arts that are evolving in its place?

I just want you to dance with me tonight…

So croons the rising pop star, Olly Murs, in his single, “Dance With Me Tonight,” and with that simple request, he transforms what was once a fairly common question into a vulnerable plea in the hopes of making fans swoon and, ultimately, buy his record. Unfortunately, the modern dance scene does little to validate Olly’s hopes, because the idea of asking someone to dance has evidently been replaced by slowly creeping up behind a person until there is a significant potential of genital contact. Gone are the days of knowing your dance partner’s name much less anything about their life, and therein lies the ultimate fear of modern day clubbers:

Intimacy.

My generation often equates intimacy with sexuality, but in reality, the word bears a much closer resemblance to simple proximity. With the increased popularity of clubbing and grinding, we have effectively nullified the requirement of face-to-face contact that dancing used to necessitate. When face to face with another human being, you open yourself to intense vulnerability on a primal level. Your back is open to attack, your surroundings fade into mystery, and for those three minutes, your life is intimately connected with another person.

For countless years, stories were shared within this purgatory. Dreams and fears alike were entrusted to complete strangers with the utmost trust, and when the applause sounded in the dance hall, maybe you had shared enough to warrant a second spin. This intimate exchange defined the night of those lucky enough to experience it, and each one began with a simple question. Now, the question has been removed from the equation, the initiation of the conversation has disappeared, the exchange never has a chance to blossom, and with DJs consistently melding one song into the next, the opportunity to ask for a second dance never arises.

How many relationships have been halted before they have been given a chance to begin?

It’s no great secret that my generation has a general problem with the concept of true intimacy. Rarely do we elapse any significant amount of time without checking our phone screens (I am particularly guilty of this), because we fear the vulnerability that may arise from that face to face contact with a stranger. Perhaps, we are simply more aware of the potential dangers that are associated with unknown contact, and maybe that is an evolution that society has mandated. But who knows…maybe one day, we’ll get back to looking each other in the eye and asking for a dance.